In this episode, I share my journey of sobriety, focusing on the challenges I faced during my first experiences after rehab. I talk about the emotional impact of holidays, grocery store visits, and even watching reality TV without alcohol. I reflect on the shock of seeing myself under the influence in old videos and the profound grief I felt after losing a friend to an overdose. I also share the deeply personal experience of my first sober sexual encounter, which brought up traumatic memories from my childhood abuse. I emphasize the importance of confronting these challenges, grieving, and finding empowerment in sobriety. I encourage listeners to seek support and to share their own experiences as well.